Waecicu beach, Labuan Bajo. 2022. Recently I've been spending a lot of time by myself our dinners been out of town and a lot my friends have been away and I don't know I've just felt lonelier and you know usually I get showering alone. i procrastinate and don't really not too of myself. this time I felt different it's given me a lot of time to think about the things in my life. it's given me some balance and guidance and you know when we think about loneliness, we're meeting assume it's a bad thing, like being alone is something we should try and run away from something we should try and prevent. and I think embracing loneliness is probably a good thing sometimes. I definitely allow me to be more creative, just to know you're lonely knowing that. this is your time and your opportunity to do anything. it's kind of comforting in a way I guess, really the fact of the matter is all of us are lonely, all of us feel that and fortunately the Internet h
As the title suggests ‘I feel lost inside myself,’ this is true, I do feel lost inside myself. I feel completely lost. I don’t know what to make of my life or where to go or what to do with it. I first found this quote ‘I am lost inside myself’ on a picture that I posted above. Its like this picture found me. It is me. It explains exactly how I am feeling in five words. So anyway, what happened today. Well I was home all day, not an unusual thing for me. If I’m not at work I’m normally at home, in bed, on my laptop, being unproductive. I guess this could be productive. Is it? I’m not sure. This whole thing seems kind of silly to me, I’m just doing it because I don’t know where else to go or what else to do. I have no close friends, well I did have one until last night. I’ve screwed up bad. I’ve done some things I really really regret, things that I so horrible and sick that I don’t feel I can share yet. I will write them down when I am ready. I think thats all I am going to say for tod